Letter to Cruz {September 19, 2013}

Sarah from Our Journey started this link- up and I absolutely LOVE it. I haven't done the monthly letter to Cruz as I've seen some other mamas do, but I think it's really special to have something for him to read when he's older (besides this entire blog which has basically been ALL about him).

And some of you may remember me posting {here} about getting one of the best gifts - a letter my mama wrote to me 25 years ago when I was just 7 years old - for our hometown time capsule. We had our town's 125th celebration this year and the time capsule was opened. I cannot even begin to explain how much it meant to me to receive it, so I'm hoping one day Cruz feels the same way.

So here goes....

Dear Cruz,

My first born baby, you will always have my heart. Right now you are twenty-two months old and I cannot even remember where the time has gone. I'm sad that our time with you has gone so fast, but I also look forward to every single day with you.

I feel like I'm the most fortunate person on this earth to be able to live in your world. Every single day you amaze me with just the littlest things. You are so smart and it's not just me who says that, everyone comments on it. I can see you taking in every little thing going on around you and taking in the details of your environment.  

You have the brightest smile - it really lights up a room. You have such a big heart, you are so funny, sweet, caring, loving and you are so darn cute. I catch myself staring at you and just wondering how you turned out so amazing and how we got so lucky.

You are loved by so many people. Not only your daddy and me, but our family is just smitten with you as are our friends and every single person you've encountered through both Primrose and Millard daycares and, of course, your best friend for eight months, nanny J. 

I have also never worried about one person more than I worry about you. With all of the craziness going on in the world around us, I just want you to be safe. Safe from harm, from bullying, from any types of danger, from illness. I have never felt the need to protect something more than to protect you. I don't want you to hurt or be sad or ever have to worry, although I know that's not realistic.

I want so much for you. I want you to get everything you want in life. I want you to be healthy and happy and loved and cared for. I want you to experience new things. To travel. To be successful in however you define success. I want to make sure we have a strong bond that never fades.  I want you to have a sibling who you can grow up with, be best friends with just like your dad and I have experienced with our siblings. I want you to love being around your family.

Cruz, more than anything I just want you to be happy. And I will do anything I can to make sure that is the case. I am so proud of you. Thank you for all of the joy you have brought me over the past twenty-two months.  I love you more than you will ever know. 

Love,
Me